Tuesday, March 04, 2008
~ Anger Management ~
8:41:00 pm
I just realised how much I missed my good ol' days during my polytechnic times... My friends and classmates... Fione, Germac, Evelyn, Flora, Kewei, Jeraldine, Xiufen, etc... I truly missed those times... Even though I still get to see some of them occasionally, nothing beats the feelings of being together at school, enjoying ourselves silly and getting stressed out for our examinations and presentations...
Just the thought of it made me realised how rigid and selfish I've been towards my dearest... He's been spending lots of time with his colleagues lately due to his courses... And I've tried to 'control' him by getting him not to mix around with his colleagues as much... But I didn't realised that this was one of his chances to enjoy his 'studying' phase... Once he starts going back to his station to work fully, he will never get to enjoy all of these again...
But what can I say? I am a very jealous person... Honestly, I didn't realised that I AM a jealous person, not only until recently... *Heh*... And that's not all... He has more female colleagues than males... And, and, and... They always go out together as a group (with other guys around, of course) on weekends... So tell me, how can I don't feel jealous at all?? *Hmmpph*...
Not just that, on the day I had my presentation for my assignment, I asked my dear for his help to be our cameraman... Well, he couldn't make it since his class ended at 6pm... Okay, fair enough... I wasn't angry about that... But guess what he did instead?? He went to VIVOCITY with his friends... OMG!! I was just so pissed off!! I was angry not because he did not come, but because he chose to go out with his friends instead of going home!! And on the day I asked him for his help!!
Okay okay... I'm just behaving as a jealous b***h... *Heh*... Sorry, I'm just ventilating my anger out...
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
